all are not happy....

miles to go before I sleep.

............The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

Robert Frost

How can I know when God is telling me to do something?

: Pray, especially when you’re unsure of God’s will for your life. “If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him” (James 1:5). “Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him” (Psalm 37:7). If you don’t know what to pray, you can always personalize & pray verses such as, “Show me the way I should go, for to You I lift up my soul” (Psalm 143:8) and, “Guide me in Your truth and teach me” (Psalm 25:5).

Thank You Lord

Thank You Lord

Lord, I hope You hear
This prayer I have today
Please listen now real closely
To the words I need to say.

I thank You for Your blessings
That You've always given me
You've given me a love of life
And eyes that I might see.

I look to see the beauty
Of everywhere You touch
I'm deeply filled with gratitude
And I thank You Lord, so much.

The gifts You give go on and on
Each day brings something new
Peace and joy and happiness
I can always count on You!

Oh god…WHY?

Why mom…

…did you choose to get pregnant if you NEVER wanted me…

WHY?

Why mom…

…did you choose to keep me instead of giving me away, if you hated me so…

WHY?

Why mom …

…did you let him hurt me over and over when you heard me cry…

WHY?

Why mom…

…did you NOT save me and hold me when i cried in pain…

WHY?

Why mom…

…did you hurt me with your hands when they should have been loving and gentle…

WHY?

Why mom…

…did you disappear and leave me with him … was the world much better without me..

WHY?

Why mom …

…did you NOT hear me when i pleaded for your help… were you deaf…

WHY?

Why mom …

…did YOUR need for drugs require giving my little body to “those guys”…

WHY?

Why mom…

… did you laugh at me… when i told you i was scared…

WHY?

Why mom …

…did you NEVER hold me close and absorb all my sadness…

WHY?

Why mom…

… did you look at me in disgust and hate… what did i do…

WHY?

Why mom…

… did you FINALLY walk away and NEVER look back…where are you…

WHY?

Why mom…

… did you NEVER love me… was i that terrible…

WHY?

.

Oh god…WHY?

Save me, O God

Save me, O God, because the floods
Come in upon my soul;
I sink in depths where none can stand;
Deep waters, o’er me roll.

My constant calling wearies me,
My throat is parched and dried,
My eyes grow dim while for my God
Still waiting I abide.

O God, my folly and my sin
Thy holy eye can see;
Yet save from shame, Lord God of hosts,
Thy saints that wait on Thee.

Forbid, O God, our covenant God,
That those who seek Thy face
Should see Thy servant put to shame
And share in my disgrace.

It is for Thee I am reproached,
For Thee I suffer shame,
Until my brethren know me not,
And hated is my name.

It is my zeal for Thine abode
That has consumed my life;
Reproached by those reproaching Thee,
I suffer in the strife.

I wept, with fasting bowed my soul,
Yet that was made my shame;
When I in sackcloth clothed myself,
Their byword I became.

The men who sit within the gate
With slander do me wrong,
And they who linger at their cups
Make me their jest and song.

ഒരു നിമിഷം

സങ്കട കാലത്ത് പാലിച്ച ദൈവത്തേ
സോദരാ നീ മറന്നോ.....
അറിയാതെ പിഴ ചെയ്ത, സഹജര്‍ക്ക് മുന്‍പില്‍ നീ-
-നീതിമാനായ് ചമഞ്ഞോ?

നിന്‍റെ നിലവിളി കേട്ട നിന്‍ ദൈവത്തേ..
നീ ഇന്ന് വിസ്മരിച്ചോ ,
ആഹാരം യാചിച്ചു നീട്ടിയ കയ്കളെ
കണ്ടില്ലെന്നു നടിച്ചോ...

Never be Late in Expressing your Love

At home she sat on her bed and patiently began to read whatever Jack had written. Though it was incomplete, it made much sense. He had written:-“Today I want to tell the whole world that I love Joan but I cannot tell it to her. I know she loves me too and if she gets to know about my feelings, her love for me will increase more. Oh God! Why did you make me the patient of cancer? Why do you want to take me away too early? Only few months are left for me to leave. I don’t want her to cry, I don’t want her to feel lonely after my death. She doesn’t have anyone except me and when she will come to know that the one she loves is suffering from cancer and that he will survive only for a few months, her heart…” “ ...Will break!” Joan completed the incomplete sentence with tears rolling down her cheeks. She couldn’t help crying and finally decided that she will remain normal before Jack and whatever happens she will express her love to him. The night was too long for Joan. It was difficult for her to wait. She was eager to meet him and tell him how much she loved him. So what if he will survive for a few months only, he was the only one in her life. She could at no cost leave him like that. Jack was disturbed as he had lost the paper. “If Joan has taken the paper then she will get to know everything,” he thought. “It will make me mad. I am going too far. I know I will not survive but still I want to let you know Joan how much I love you. Only this night, yes let this night pass and you shall hear from me the three most awaited words for you,” Jack thought in his mind. The next day both of them ran to the sea shore to express their love to each other. But as Joan was crossing the road, a truck hit her and she fell on the other side of the road where a car crushed her. By chance Jack came there and when he saw the huge crowd, he tried to see who it was. He was shocked to see Joan lying on the road with blood flowing from all over the body. He ran to her and said, “Joan! Joan! Somebody please help me in taking her to the hospital.” “No Jack. I won’t…”and she took a deep breath. “I love you Jack, I read your page. I am happy I am dying before you. It would have been more painful to see you dying .Ah!” I love you too Joan.” “Ya ..I know...” and she slowly closed her eyes to leave for the next world. But she had a smile on her face. She was contented. At last she got someone who loved her but then God’s wish was to take her away.

“This is not fair God.” Jack looked up in the sky and cried. “You have left me alone once again. When this poor girl and this poor boy got happiness, you took her away without even thinking what I will do without her. After a long time she got happiness and when the time to enjoy came, you took her away.” A stranger held the hand of Jack and said in a low voice, “Joy comes after sorrow. But people are never satisfied. They just want happiness. Didn’t you see the smile on her face? At least she was satisfied—she got you and you too loved her, this much was enough for her.”

യേശുവെന്ന് വിളിച്ചതേ......

...ഉള്ളു നൊന്തു നീറുമ്പോഴും പുഞ്ചിരിക്കുവാന്‍
ഞാന്‍എന്തേറെ നൊന്തുരുകി പ്രാര്‍തഥിച്ചുവെന്നോ,

ആരുടെ മുന്‍പില്‍ ചെന്നും കയ്കള്‍ നീട്ടാതെ

മാനം കാക്കാന്‍ ഞാന്‍ എന്തേറെ പാടുപെട്ടെന്നോ

വേദനകള്‍ ഒന്നൊന്നായി വാതില്‍ മുട്ടവേ
നാട് വിട്ടു പോയാലോ എന്ന് കരുതി
ഈശോ നാഥാ നീ പോലും കയ്യ് വിട്ടെന്ന്
ഞാന്‍ ഓര്‍ത്തു പോകവേ എന്‍ കണ്ണ് നിറഞ്ഞു.....

ഞാന്‍ ഒരാളെ ആശ്രയിച്ചെന്‍ വീട് കഴിയേ
ഞാനും കൂടി വീണു പോയാല്‍ എല്ലാം തകരും,
ഏറെ കുറേ നിര്‍മലനായ് ജീവിച്ചിട്ടും എന്‍
കണ്ണുനീരിന്‍ പാനപാത്രം നീങ്ങി പോയില്ല

നല്ല കാലം കൂടെ നിന്ന സ്നേഹിതരെല്ലാം
ദൈവശാപമാണെനിക്ക് എന്നും വിധിച്ചു,
ആരും കേള്‍ക്കാന്‍ നിന്നില്ല എന്‍ ദുഖങ്ങള്‍
ഞാന്‍ എന്‍റെ ഭാരം എവിടെ ഇറക്കിവെയ്ക്കും ?

യേശുവിന്‍റെ മുന്‍പില്‍ വീണു കണ്ണീരൊഴുക്കി
എന്‍റെ സഹനങള്‍ ക്രൂശില്‍ ചേര്‍ത്ത് തറയ്കാന്‍..

യേശുവെന്ന് വിളിച്ചതേ ഞാന്‍ കരഞ്ഞു പോയ്‌
പിന്നെ എന്‍റെ വേദനകള്‍ പ്രാര്തഥനയായി .....................

ഞാന്‍ ആരോടിതെല്ലാം പറയും....

....മരണംപോല്‍ അപമാനം പെയ്ത മണിക്കൂറില്‍
പ്രിയരെല്ലാം തള്ളി പറഞ്ഞു എന്നെ,
കൊല്ലപെടാനുള്ള കുഞ്ഞാടിനെ പോലെ
പരിഹാസമേറ്റങ്ങു നിന്ന് പോയ്‌ ഞാന്‍ ..
ജീവിച്ചിരിപ്പുണ്ടോ എന്ന് പോലും ഒന്ന് അന്വേഷികനായിട്ടാരും ഇല്ല, പാതാളത്തോളം ഞാന്‍ താഴുമ്പോഴും നാഥാ,
അവരെല്ലാം ഉയരനായ് പ്രാര്‍ത്ഥിക്കുന്നു,
ഈ ആരാധന മാത്രം ആശ്വാസം

ഞാന്‍ ആരോടിതെല്ലാം പറയും,
പാന പാത്രം ഇന്നാരൊപ്പം കുടിക്കും
പാവന സ്നേഹമേ മനമുരുകുമ്പോള്‍ ഞാന്‍ കാണുന്നില്ലാരെയും ഒപ്പം,
ഈ ആരാധന മാത്രം ആശ്വാസം.

Why I'm Happy Today

I am so happy God loves me just because I am His child.

Psalm 51

1 Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy loving kindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions. 2 Wash me thoroughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin. 3 For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me. 4 Against thee, thee only, have I sinned , and done this evil in thy sight: that thou mightiest be justified when thou speak est , and be clear when thou judge st . 5 Behold, I was shaped in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me. 6 Behold, thou desires truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom. 7 Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean : wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow. 8 Make me to hear joy and gladness; that the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice . 9 Hide thy face from my sins, and blot out all mine iniquities. 10 Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me. 11 Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me. 12 Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit. 13 Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; and sinners shall be converted unto thee. 14 Deliver me from blood guiltiness, O God, thou God of my salvation: and my tongue shall sing aloud of thy righteousness. 15 O Lord, open thou my lips; and my mouth shall shew forth thy praise. 16 For thou desires not sacrifice; else would I give it: thou delight est not in burnt offering. 17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise . 18 Do good in thy good pleasure unto Zion: build thou the walls of Jerusalem. 19 Then shalt thou be pleased with the sacrifices of righteousness, with burnt offering and whole burnt offering: then shall they offer bullocks upon thine altar.

Thank you Lord

When life is difficult, count your blessings name them one by one. It will truly SURPRISE you what the Lord has done. He is FAITHFUL.

Thank you...
for your goodness
for your kindness
for your forgiveness
for your mercy
for your grace
for your provision
for your protection
for your Presence
for your presents
for your Word
for your love
for your patience
for your faithfulness
for just being who you are
the I am THAT I am
Thank you Lord.